An Answered Prayer

So I've decided to share a personal moment in the Hussey home, beware it's goning to be long!

After Beau and I found out that we were having another little girl we decided that we were done having children. We felt three girls was enough, we both had different reasons for not wanting more children but none-the-less we were on the same page. We decided that Beau would schedule a vasectomy while I was still pregnant. The reason for that would be that you can't 'accidentally' get prego if you already are, right?! Well, the more we both prayed and pondered the idea, we both separately felt that we needed to wait until after the baby was born. We didn't know why, it was just a strong feeling for both of us, so we waited knowing that we would still make the appt. after the baby was born.

Well, Kerrigan was born and we set about taking the necessary steps for Beau to have the procedure. After he'd been to the consultation appt. I started having my first doubts about not going thru with it. When I talked to Beau about it he was still pretty adamant that he didn't want anymore kids and so I just took my reservations to the Lord and asked him to give me that reassurance that we were making the right decision and to calm me. Little things would happen and I'd be sure we were making the right decision, so I got rid of all my maternity clothes and started making plans to give away all the baby clothes too. Well, after a month or so we didn't here back from the clinic about the date of the surgery, so I prompted Beau to call again and wouldn't you know it, too much time had past and he needed to have another consultation. So he went in and got an appt. set up for April 21st (tomorrow).

So things were going as planned we were going about our daily business, preparing ourselves and then about a week or so ago as I was playing with all three girls in the living room downstairs, I had this strange feeling that I had forgotten one of the kids upstairs. I looked around and realized that I was holding Kerrigan and that Olivia and Taryn were playing right in front of me! 'Uh Oh!' was my first thought, but I brushed it off because I knew how Beau felt about the whole thing. But a few days later the same thing happened! By then I knew I had to tell Beau. I sat him down one night and told him what had happened to me and I made him promise me that if he had any doubts, thoughts, dreams, promptings, anything! that he would tell me. So he promised me and I heard nothing from him until today. All weekend he's been nervous about Monday, he's actually been driving me crazy! What a big baby!

Anyway :), up until today plans were moving along as usual and then we go to church. During Relief Society the Bishop comes in to talk to us and as he gets up this is what he says, (I'm paraphrasing) 'I was going to talk to you about something else today, but I feel prompted to speak about something else.' Me not thinking to much about it just sits there to listen. He then proceeds to ask us a question. "How many children does the church say we should have?" my fist thoughts are 'oh great, here we go!" of course the answer was, there is no set # it is between us and our husbands and the lord. But he then shares with us legitimate reasons we may choose not to have more children ie, money, emotional stability, health, etc. But he did say that we shouldn't choose not to have more children for selfish reasons....uh oh! Can you imagine the thoughts going through my head and the giggles and looks between me and my girlfriends! I left not knowing if I was being reassured that we were making the right decision or if I was being told to we needed to wait.

The whole way home I couldn't stop thinking about how I was going to tell Beau and how mad he was going to be at me. Beau got home from his church a few minutes after the girls and I did and he picked up that something was wrong right away. I started to tell him what the Bishop had said and he started to stop me, but then let me finish, to my surprise he didn't get mad! What he did was lead me to the couch, sat me down and proceeded to tell me what his sermon was about today. His pastor gave a sermon on the types of knowledge and whatever he said made Beau think about whether or not we were making the right decision. Is this what we want or is this what the Lord wants. And since I made Beau promise to tell me if he felt anything he knew he needed to tell me.

Well, needless to say we both felt that Heavenly Father was giving us a clear answer to our prayers, we needed to wait! What a weight that was lifted off both of our shoulders that we hadn't even realized was there. Now, to clarify a little bit neither of us completely feel that we will have more children just that this is not the right time to be making a permanent decision. In my heart I really feel there is one more, but we will revisit this whole thing in a couple of years and see where we are then. I am so grateful for my husband and for his spirituality that he can be in tune enough to know when the Lord is speaking to him. We are truly blessed!